Hello world. I'm Destiny and thank you for reading my blog. If you are wondering about the name, Magical Ass, let me explain: I am starting my weight loss journey and I am hoping that my ass will prove to be "magical" and start disappearing. Yeah I know, super cheesy but I think it's funny.
So here's what I'm starting with, I am at 256 lbs., the highest weight I have ever been at. A wonderful combination of shitty habits and a pregnancy have made my fat ass what it is today. I'm a size 20 (jeans) / 3 XL (shirt). I am also 23 years old, into alternative and folk music, absurd comedies, Harry Potter, I'm addicted to social networking sites. I'm kind of a lazy ass and I like to plan out things but not actually do them. Yep, and I'm trying to be honest. I could leave that last part out but where's that gonna get me? It's lying to myself that got me here in the first place (I'm not really fat, it's just genetics...I just had a baby last year, it's to be expected...who cares if I'm fat, I have a great husband and a gorgeous kid, what else is there?) I told myself that shit every time I started to notice that my clothes didn't fit anymore and I couldn't walk down the hall without losing my breath. I hid any picture of myself, no posting those things to myspace.
Then, it started to dawn on me, what am I doing? Seriously, is it better to dilute myself with bullshit rather than just fix the fucking problem? Yes. Yes it was, for another 6 months or so. Then I started noticing that I wasn't having any "hot" days, you know when you get ready in the morning and you think, "wow, I look cute today!" I had those in high school and up until after Lulu was born. Then, they stopped. I don't wear anything but sweats, jeans t-shirts (men's usually) and hoodies. I have also developed the "easter egg belly" where your lower tummy pooch is nicely defined under your pants then your shirt doesn't come down far enough to cover it up, so you have a 2 toned belly thing going. So yeah, being fat sucks ass.
I'm not bitching about this for the whole post I promise but I just want to establish how I feel right now, maybe someone will relate and maybe I want to go back and read this and think "Man, I don't miss that!"
My husband and I have started eating better and I'm getting about 1500 cals a day, and today I did some exercise. OK I did 10 minutes of a Jillian Michaels kickboxing DVD (it was fucking brutal, I thought I was going to die!) Then I took a break and then did half of a ab cardio video. Yay! I plan on taking a walk later too. I'll let you know how that goes.
Let's finish this off now, I'm running out of things to say really...
THE JOURNEY BEGINS!!
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